Mom & Dad (Milagros & Ramon) – r.i.p. I miss you… You were royalty and mami you fought cancer until the end, with such bravery and grace. I love you both, may you be in our Father’s & Almighty’s arms :’] > In Alt Springs at the moment… Whew! Almost lost count! the other day, I could not find that main street by downtown.. Michigan? After living and driving by it 12 years – My brain completely shut down, as if in another place! Keep forgetting names I should know, info, etc.. That should come second nature to me. Ooh.. that chemo brain is for real! At times feel like a race horse, can and only able to see, whats in front of me.. Hmmm, maybe that is the way were suppose to live… Forward and always onward. After 18 places this year, dealing with the monstercancer and other’s opinionated perpectives and comfort zones… Plus the constant ‘new %$#@& normal’ aftershocks, loss of countless relationships, car, and home.. Feel God’s got me and loves me more than ever. Weird, so wish my mom and dad were still around; truly gone too young.. Been thinking of them a lot lately.
Well, thank you if you actually look me in the eye, accept and love me as-is. Or listen to my lately louder and exausted, impatient, sad and at the same time full of healthy voice, venting and stupid laughs.. I would barely feel as part of the living, if it wasn’t for you.. Hope & pray I get to see the dozens of F&F I have not seen, truly ‘seen’, or only a couple of times, since my diagnoses in 2010. Wish you nothing but the best, healing, forgiveness, and lots of courage just as life, love and God keeps gifting us and get to live one more day. So, yeah..just surviving is all. Praising God no matter what! He knows and those who are in the dark trenches even if periodically with me, know I am, as all doing our best. God bless you/us all for that! Happier (even if many times depleted and sad) still, with more appreciation, clarity & focus than ever. But for real you all, keep me in your prayers and help me if you want and can.. Thank God every time the sun comes up brings us a chance to do something different and if needed start again =’)
Testimony & Photos – Pray it saves &/or supports a life. https://www.facebook.com/blessed.ellie/media_set?set=a.375089665895974.88303.100001848304303&type=3
Ok, so downtown.. Whenever I get to drive a car ( or RV by all of your generosity and lovesupport > http://www.gofundme.com/50n1l0 I’m gonna go find that street Michigan! Yup!! For now, part ot my brain literally fried :’/ Aahhh… That explains why my hair is getting ‘puffier’ as it grows back!! He, hee… Anywho, if it is to the benefit of His biggest purpose to cure me of cancer, I am sure that the recycling of our communities, adoptive families, blood or otherwise and this adventure we call living… His mercy, justice and love will cure and conquer it ALL. Jah bless loves
Blessed Elizabeth> Sibblings Michelle Anderson and Luis Ceballos are all grown with kids and marry now :’) To think I was like a 2nd mom to them.. How time flies! Now… Do it all now. Don’t listen to all that new age and wishful , Im in control of the universe ‘sh&@uff’ Even though our spirit is eternal and it will all fall in to place soon enough.. There is no time! Chances leave, do not ever repeat and we are not God or in control of time. We are only dust and this organic temple does have a very fragile and perisheable expiration. So from the botton of my … Happy praising, singing, screaming, laughing, authenticity, forgiving, giving & receiving, plus lots of praising & dancing… To us all :P Our Source plus King, made us the pinacle of their creation and and the center of their affection. This whole planet is specifically made for our joy… With the right perimeters – Enjoy! We, more than anybody, know in our hearts what’s righty, wrong and up. After all we R born with His blueprint! Let’s keep living and letting others live (or even better, being supportive of their joy), while we still can; And has not ‘fried’ ;]
Inspirational – Wishing you goose bumps… :’)